I’m about to be a dad. Yes, our little James is already here, and he’s been alive for going on nine months, but he’s about to be HERE. His flailing body, fragile head, and tiny fingers are about to be a reality in my arms. That scares me poopless. What if I hold him wrong? What happens when he cries for hours on end for no apparent reason? I’ve never even changed a diaper! How do I know that his delivery will be successful? Will he be healthy? What if he has some sort of medical disability? What if…? How do I…? Ahhh!!
Emily and I just got home from another preparing for childbirth class in which we learned all about the complications associated with pain management and the interventions that may need to be taken at anytime during labor. What happens if James’ cord comes out the wrong way and we have to go into emergency surgery? Will the nurse anesthetist miss the epidural layer and cause Emily’s heart to stop? Will our baby suffer from Erb’s palsy?
Not only that, but how are we going to afford another member in our family? I don’t make all that much as a youth pastor and Emily doesn’t work. I’m certainly not complaining about what God has blessed us with, but is it going to be enough? Labor is expensive enough, and then we have diapers and clothes and… college!
Welcome to my world.
These thoughts can be all-consuming. Every ounce of mental and emotional energy can be wrapped up in the “what if” and the unknown. It doesn’t have to be about becoming a father or struggling with money. This world is filled with problems, issues, and fears. And it’s in times like these in which we need to look to God.
I imagine Aladdin to be an accurate picture of God in my life right now.
He’s looking at me, on His carpet of faith with his hand extended, asking: “Do you trust me?”
And my response has to be a simple “yes.” And when I do that, I am taking His hand, stepping out in faith, and letting Him guide me and my family on this adventure called life.
I don’t know what the future holds, but I believe that God does. And I’m far better off placing my hand in His, giving Him my worries, and letting Him guide.
What fears do you need to give to God? And where do you need to let Him guide?
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